I am beyond happy to do nothing today. To have no agenda and just, chill out.
My housemate's brother is staying with us at the moment and the three of us have had two great nights of restaurant dinners and drinks. I almost forgot what it was like to enjoy going out without having to think about what's coming up in the next few days or what else I should be doing or how much whatever I'm doing is costing me. Those stupid subconscious thoughts infiltrate all the time and somehow find a way to permeate into my conscious mind which is super annoying. Seriously, go away, nobody likes you, anxiety.
As I said though, I am more than content re: today. It's Melbourne Cup day and the aforementioned sister-brother duo are heading off to the races whilst I have an ACTION PACKED DAY OF ADVENTURE AND ACTIVITY in the forms of Star Wars Battlefront II and scriptwriting. It's fun to not have a deadline with my script and to just be able to work on it as I please. I'm starting to think of ideas during the day and lol like a crazy person, on the tram, sitting on my own. It's fun when that happens though because I then start plotting out entire episodes and character arcs from those ideas. I think, and this is a stretch, I might be....creative? YES! I have something to go on! I'm not a total loss!
I got my sister and another friend of mine to read the draft thus far, and they both had similar, positive responses. I actually value what they say as well because I know they won't lie just to caress my tiny, tiny ego or lie to make me not want to die from lack of talent. They've both got knowledge and/or experience with film and TV so their opinions matter to me. Anyway, at least I know I'm on the right track. Ish. I'm not entirely sure I believe there's any track that my life is on, but never fear, trains aren't always on tracks...(?)
That's my highly intelligent "proverb" for the day. Can't you tell I'm destined to be a writer?
My housemate's brother is staying with us at the moment and the three of us have had two great nights of restaurant dinners and drinks. I almost forgot what it was like to enjoy going out without having to think about what's coming up in the next few days or what else I should be doing or how much whatever I'm doing is costing me. Those stupid subconscious thoughts infiltrate all the time and somehow find a way to permeate into my conscious mind which is super annoying. Seriously, go away, nobody likes you, anxiety.
As I said though, I am more than content re: today. It's Melbourne Cup day and the aforementioned sister-brother duo are heading off to the races whilst I have an ACTION PACKED DAY OF ADVENTURE AND ACTIVITY in the forms of Star Wars Battlefront II and scriptwriting. It's fun to not have a deadline with my script and to just be able to work on it as I please. I'm starting to think of ideas during the day and lol like a crazy person, on the tram, sitting on my own. It's fun when that happens though because I then start plotting out entire episodes and character arcs from those ideas. I think, and this is a stretch, I might be....creative? YES! I have something to go on! I'm not a total loss!
I got my sister and another friend of mine to read the draft thus far, and they both had similar, positive responses. I actually value what they say as well because I know they won't lie just to caress my tiny, tiny ego or lie to make me not want to die from lack of talent. They've both got knowledge and/or experience with film and TV so their opinions matter to me. Anyway, at least I know I'm on the right track. Ish. I'm not entirely sure I believe there's any track that my life is on, but never fear, trains aren't always on tracks...(?)
That's my highly intelligent "proverb" for the day. Can't you tell I'm destined to be a writer?
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