My party last night showed just how amazing my friends truly are. It's such a cliché to say you have the best friends in the world but seriously, I do. I've been overwhelmed with generosity and humbled by the words that they said and wrote about me. I guess I didn't realise how much I meant to some people. I suddenly feel like I should be doing more with myself; living up to the image that they painted of me. Emma spoke of how she "idolised" me in earlier years. That alone is just out of this world. She's been the most supportive, beautiful, courageous creature who will forever be a strong constant in my life, and to think that she has thought of me that highly for that long is astounding. Joel and Matt both spoke of such amazing things as well. It's nice to hear how much love they both have for me. I know I am completely in love with them both. I'm completely in love with Emma too.
The gifts I received, both material and monetary, are somewhat mindblowing as well. I mentioned the generosity of my friends? Well, with what I have now, I plan on having a very full month of shopping, decorating and spoiling [myself rotten]. It's all very exciting, and something I've waited the entire year to do.
I need to say now that I feel really good. I feel like I may gain direction soon, which has been a long time coming. Inspiration is one thing, but direction is another, and one can often go by the wayside if the other isn't right there with it. Hopefully my time will come soon, where both of those paths cross.
If you were here, I know you'd wish me a happy birthday. You'd also know what to tell me. You'd know which direction to point me in. And you'd do it with a grin.
