The Seventieth: Wrapping Thoughts

The Sixty-Ninth: Warm Breeze

Tonight is my last night in Perth for a while. I'll be back a fair bit in the latter half of the year, but still, it's hard to leave so much behind again. There's the weather, the people, the familiarity, the comfort, the ease of living etc. But there's also everything that I left here for in the first place. I have worn out Perth for all it can do for me right now. I will come back in a while though, for some things, for some reasons.

It feels like going back to Melbourne is finally like going home, where my job and belongings are. In saying that, I want a different job. I'm not enjoying where I'm at right now, so I'm going to change it. Why waste my time in unhappy circumstances when I could be spending it happily elsewhere?

Choices have arisen amongst the people closest to me, and they have to make their own decisions. I can safely say that this is the factor causing my own change of heart in a number of things. If their decisions eventuate to moving states, who knows, I may follow for fun. But I may also make a big move myself. I have to live my own life.

Change is good, for me right now anyway. Hopefully I'll be able to write again soon and follow up my optimism with more of the same.

The Sixty-Eighth: Blink

Life can change in an instant. I mean, some changes are drawn out over long periods of time, but others just...happen in seconds. How do we learn to cope with those changes? Those ones that we can't possibly predict? Perhaps those are better. The unsuspecting surprises that render us all numb and useless. Perhaps not having the time to overthink and attempt to control the situation is a blessing.

Maybe.

The Sixty-Seventh: Summer Haze

Tonight, I went to a 21st in the dress that makes me look like the stunning singer Adele. So it got me thinking about some of her lyrics. They're very powerful and I know that both albums are written after break-ups, but some things still hit home.

The lyrics "never mind, I'll find someone like you" are incredible. The fact that after saying everything in that song, she then says "never mind" is just wow. Maybe it's just a headspace thing but the idea of putting on a brave face in the middle of the hardest thing you've ever had to do is definitely applicable to a lot of people.

I think I'll always be putting on brave faces. Most of the people I know don't even have the slightest clue of the hardships and personal issues I've got. Isn't that the case with everyone?

Guess I'm going back to the emotional dredges of before.

Oh and before I forget, even though you'll never read this, Bronte, I'm sorry I was like I was. I hope you'll forgive me.

The Sixty-Sixth: The Way We Get By

This little thing, right here, hiding under the avocado tree, is part of what makes everything worth it.

The Sixty-Fifth: Get Down

I'm back in Perth, for a limited time only, and adoring it. The weather has finally showed itself to be happy, and seeing most of my friends for the first time in 6 months is wonderful. To make things better, I'm going on a little road trip down south with a few close friends.

This isn't a post about heavy emotions, nor is it a whingey, self-absorbed, obsessive entry.

I am merely saying that at this point, right now, I am content.

And its lovely.