I do a lot of whinging, I know that, but it's actually justified some of the time. Like right now. I can't do anything of worth until next year. Yes, I'll have fun and spend time with friends and all that, but I mean that I won't have anything to hold to my name until I move to Melbourne for next year.
I'm not sure how I'm supposed to function to be honest. People grow up and realise their dreams; their aspirations. How do you get from point A to point B though? There's a tonne of rags to riches stories, and others of unreservedly talented beings that find their way through the throng of humanity in a few years to be on top of the world.
What scares me is that I don't know if I'm any good at what I'm interested in. It's no secret that I'm into film, well, "into" doesn't quite cover it, but you get the idea. So? I'm into it. I want to do something more with my life to do with film, but I have no idea if I can write, think, direct, produce, film or do anything that filmmakers need to have talent at doing. It's not that I'm saying I can't do these things, but in the same token, I don't that I can.
Accountants go to university and come out knowing exactly what to do. Lawyers get their law degrees then go work the dramatics of the courtroom. Filmmakers go to university and get a piece of paper telling them that they can...do what? Direct? Sure, but it won't be a Hollywood blockbuster straight out. Film? Yes, they can operate a camera, but they're no DP. Edit? Of course they can edit, it's one of the first major challenges, but can they edit a huge multi-million dollar project? Don't think so.
My point is that some people can come out of their degrees knowing almost everything they'll encounter; how to deal with their trade, how to handle their colleagues etc. Film students have no idea about the tiniest bit of the industry they think they'll break into. It's fucking scary.
I should know. I was one of them until I decided to up and quit education.
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