I just mentioned to my best friend that I'm "having a moment". She proceeded to ask, "moment?". I can't really explain entirely what I mean by this "moment" that I'm having, but I appear to have them frequently. I enter a state of thinking that is so deep and beyond my regular consciousness that I freak out immediately after I start thinking normally again. Right now, I'm still following along the lines of my previous post. The part about how we're working towards something for no reason in particular. Well, continuing those thoughts, I came up with a brief list that just kept flowing.
We just keep going and going, but for what cause?
Do we keep going out of ignorance?
Are we not trying to find another purpose?
Are we settling with what we think we know?
What else am I expecting people to do?
I don't understand how some people can work at jobs they hate for most of their lives just to be able to put food on the table and never do what they really want; never reach true happiness. I've both questioned and answered something there though. I asked "why would you do something that doesn't make you happy" and the answer is "necessity". You do it because you have no choice. Because it is the current answer to your own personal problems. Something like that.
A week or so ago, my family were talking marriages and relationships, and my sister said something very interesting. She said, "You shouldn't settle for anything less than exactly what you want. You should be completely honest with yourself in order to be happy." I sat there thinking that wasn't just something related to love, but it's also related to every other aspect of your life. If you settle with something, then that's exactly what you'll get. Something that you don't feel quite right with, but it's an OK option at the time, so you'll take it. It comprises your happiness.
Happiness appears to be a common theme amongst my Q&As. I like to think that I'm working towards my own happiness gradually, but I wonder if I'll ever reach a point in my life where I can say, "OK, now I'm happy." Do you consistently just feel happy after achieving a long term goal? Or is this emotion just a short fix until you create your next dream to pine over?
I revolve around these thoughts.
I revolve around these anxieties.
I revolve.
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